There are times when sensing God’s presence becomes difficult, especially when anxiety takes hold. A recent medical procedure brought this struggle to the forefront for me. I have a deep-seated fear of medical procedures and doctor’s visits, which often stirs intense nervousness. The night before my appointment, I barely slept—just three hours—because of my apprehension. By the time I arrived at the clinic at 7:45 AM for my 8:00 AM appointment, anxiety had already set in. Matters grew worse when the doctor was delayed by traffic, and I waited until 9:45 AM.
All the while, my wife did everything she could to soothe me, short of taking me out of the clinic. Eventually, she stepped out to seek some answers, returning with the doctor.
As soon as the doctor entered, an unanticipated peace settled over me. Even though I had been praying for comfort and relief from my nerves, it wasn’t until the physician arrived that I experienced a deep sense of tranquility. During the procedure, I was awake with the help of medication, interacting with the staff and playing a Bible game on my phone for distraction and comfort. After about twenty minutes, the procedure ended, and I was on the path to recovery.
Once home, I found myself overwhelmed with emotion and began to cry. When my wife asked if I was in pain, I replied that I was simply grateful. I couldn’t fully explain it, but the peace I felt in that room was truly extraordinary.
Often, when we’re anxious and pleading with God to move on our behalf, the answer doesn’t come right away. Sometimes, God waits so that we’ll recognize it is truly His hand at work. When I started to credit the medicine for my calm, I heard, “It was not, it was Me.” Deep down, I knew it was God, though I hesitated to say anything that might sound overly spiritual after being so nervous moments before.
All of this is to say: even when worry and doubt overwhelm you, don’t stop asking God for what you need—even if it feels like He isn’t listening. Do not stop seeking Him. Loved ones, friends, and spouses will listen, but God, He Always Hears Us. May God continue to bless you, your brother in Christ…TMK.
